Senioritis

I am so sick of college. Really. I love it but I hate it but I love it.

I am just ready to finish my foundation studies and continue with my undergraduate studies. Seriously, I really want to be doing my thing, making some money for the awesomeness that is me. I am good at this. I know I can be great with more practice. More opportunities present themselves the longer time moves on. And I am really praising Allah for it all.

It's been really hard working and paying bills and all that while going to school 18 hours a week. I keep getting down to points where I really think I am just going to sink financially. I am sick of the sinking feeling. Over it. Love and grace has brought me this far.

The stress of it all gets to me from time to time and I hate that so much. Sometimes I still feel like I did when I was 18. It feels often like everyone else has it so damn easy while I just struggle to keep afloat. Emotionally and physically.

Alhamdulillah, I have amazing friends who love me and remind me often of my strength and potential.

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thanks for reading (:

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Posto Posto!

 

The most important thing is ;

• I don't call you with stupid immature and hard to spell names. 
• I don't really hates you, I just dislike you.
• I won't tell you to stop waiting or stop believing.
• I don't know how you feel, or actually I'm trying to ignore it.

And to tell you the truth, aku bukannya suka buat kau macam ni. But for now, let it be. Hey, if two people are meant to be together, eventually they will find their way back, kan? :) Jangan risau. Cuma buat masa ni je, please, I beg you. Let us be. I mean it.

Jaga kesihatan kau, sekarang tengah exam. Tu paling penting.

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thanks for reading (:

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